An Update/God's Presence

Okay so yesterday I went to tan. I've been trying to get ready for the trip to Dallas next week. I plan to be outside quite a bit and I didn't want to burn. So I went in yesterday to tan. I have tanned maybe 5 times this year. I'm not dark but I have a little bit of a base tan so the guy at the salon tells me to go the full time of the bed....BAD IDEA - I'm so red today. It doesn't really hurt but I'm a bit annoyed that I listened to him - I knew better!!!

I have to admit that this week feels like the longest week in eternity. I am so ready to head to Dallas for theDeepening next Monday. It seems to be the one time a year that I can get away and really clear my head. I'm looking forward to being challenged and pushed forward.

In the meantime.... Work.

For some reason, I have had trouble sleeping lately. I either can't go to sleep or I will wake up around 3am. I have been quite the insomniac. If you received a facebook comment from me in the middle of the night - sorry, I was really bored. But at the same time - being up in the middle of the night feels like bonus time. I get a lot of junk done when I can't sleep. I figure if I'm losing sleep it might as well be worth it.

This week is filled with loads of laundry and packing as I get ready for theDeepening. Last night I did some laundry - oh joy... I know I'll have to do some more by the end of the week.

Okay so on to the good stuff...

Last Sunday night we had our "connecting with God" service at First Assembly. It was a very touching service for me. I don't really understand it but sometimes I'm much more sensitive to what God is doing - this was one of those nights. Throughout the entire night I found myself fighting back tears of thankfulness for the goodness that God has shown to me. There are so many times that I fail, but He is so good to me. He loves me anyway. Sometimes it's not even that I have failed but merely that I feel like a failure but yet He runs to me and gives me hope. I just found myself again in God's presence - just wanting to be close to my Savior. Nothing else mattered. I just wanted to be there. I didn't care if we sang another song. I was looking to see if my neighbor was feeling what I was. I just closed my eyes and sang my own song to Jesus. I made it up right then. I was lost in His presence.

There is nothing like God's presence. It makes everything else seem so small. That problem - insignificant. That pain - no longer hurts. That fear - gone.

God's presence pushed everything but Him away. Nothing can compare. Just thinking back on Sunday night brings me a peace even now. I can't wait to be in God's presence.

"Here in Your presence

We are undone

Here in Your presence

Heaven and earth become one

Here in Your presence

All things are new

Here in Your presence

Everything bows before You"